I go through these phases, mood swings, or whatever you´d like to call them. They´re unpleasant patches in life where it all seems so overwhelming, where whatever I do seems to be wrong, where I worry that I´m permanently damaging my children by being around them too much. I wonder if I´m doing everything I should be/could be…am I cut out to be a stay at home mom!?! I rarely work out, which feels bad. I don´t sleep enough and am more tired and cranky throughout the day. Blah is the overall sentiment (like our sweet dog, Peepers is showing here. She´s begging for a change!)
I was patient with myself during this last patch. I didn´t push myself to cook meals as often as I usually do. I took the kids and myself out to lunch a few times last week to break up the routine and ´be fun´. I made time to read a little, hoping it would inspire me to start writing again. It didn´t, but here I am anyway. Slowly working through a funk and moving back to positivity!!!
What really helped me start to break through was connecting with my husband. We make a great team. He takes care of certain things and I others. The problem is we do a lot of it on our own instead of together. He handles stress well. I do not. He is logical. I am emotional. Together, we can do anything but he helps balance me–being reason when I´m too emotional and stressed to handle things on my own.
We had a good pow-wow on Friday night and I had a good cry. Then, I felt reset. I´ve been feeling better ever since. I just needed time to lean on my rock, to share my life stresses and to be nudged back to getting on track. As a stay-at-home parent, one can easily feel isoalted and disconnected, especially because nowadays travel is a part of so many jobs. Jeff and I have decided to check in every Sunday night and pick one night where we can just BE us.
Regardless of whether you´re with someone or not, carving out time to BE is important. In one of my meditations, Deepak Chopra said so often people are running through life. If we slow down and walk, we start to see a little more. If we slow down our walking and stop, we can BE. BEing is what we were made do it. After all we are human BEings, not human DOings.
This week, I hope that you can BE you and enjoy it. I´m glad to have broken my hiatus and will see you next week.
Hugs and love,